well....i had another convo with Rhi....she was bein soooo mean, callin me a bitch, a ho, and tellin me to fuck off...but my Jann came to the rescue...

RoCkStEaDychic66: u talking to rhi?
hurleygurlieJN04: nope
hurleygurlieJN04: just you
RoCkStEaDychic66: ohh well shes bein a bitch
hurleygurlieJN04: why
RoCkStEaDychic66: tellin me to fuck off
RoCkStEaDychic66: shes bein mean to you too sayin she has someone whos better than you....
RoCkStEaDychic66: ur my baby, no ones better than you :'(
hurleygurlieJN04: i know:-D
RoCkStEaDychic66: she called me a ho
RoCkStEaDychic66: :-(
hurleygurlieJN04: im sorry sweetie
RoCkStEaDychic66: will you yell at her?
hurleygurlieJN04: i am

Here's Jo and Rhi yellin....my Janna is too good :O)

ReNanan04: I HATE YOU!
hurleygurlieJN04: DONT FUCKIN CALL MY BABY A HO BITCH
ReNanan04: i call whoever the fuck i want to a ho!
hurleygurlieJN04: well damn...why dont u just fuckin hurt her more...
ReNanan04: ???
hurleygurlieJN04: u dont even understand why she hates u and u just gotta add to it
ReNanan04: i do not undertand why she hates me
ReNanan04: im sry my brain doesnt stoop to the fucked up level
hurleygurlieJN04: why dont u just fuckin chill and stop bein so damn mean...just leave her the fuck alone
hurleygurlieJN04: you need to treat her better and respect her...she loves me and i love her and all ur doin is ruining it
ReNanan04: she holds on to the stupidest things...me? being mean? wtf! shes the one talkin shit and bein an idiot.......if it were up to me all this shit woulda beendone with
ReNanan04: FUCK that
hurleygurlieJN04: no...FUCK YOU
ReNanan04: bitch......dont go there i never did one fucking thing to you
hurleygurlieJN04: you did do something to me bitch...you fuckin hurt my sheena!
ReNanan04: oooooooooh is she such a baby that you have to stick up for her?
ReNanan04: thats sad.....really it is
hurleygurlieJN04: fuck nah.,...my sheena aint chickenshit...she just dont wanna talk trash to someone as fuckin dumb as you
ReNanan04: if im the dumb one then why the FUCK are you talking to me? do you two honestly believe that im the dumb one? well i have something for ya. KISS MY ASS because you are the fuckin dumb ones,,,,,nothing matter but you two in your own little world
ReNanan04: so FUCK YOU and FUCK HER!!!!

Rhi is Sooooo mean, but Isn't my jann so NICE for stickin up for me??? I think soo...we love each other soo much. Take a peek:

RoCkStEaDychic66: duh then she signs off right away like shes scared of you lol
hurleygurlieJN04: lol
hurleygurlieJN04: i love you baby
hurleygurlieJN04: call me k?
RoCkStEaDychic66: okay i will
hurleygurlieJN04: take ur cell ill call u before i go to work
RoCkStEaDychic66: i love you hunny
hurleygurlieJN04: i love you too babe
hurleygurlieJN04: cya later tonight
hurleygurlieJN04: bye sweetie
RoCkStEaDychic66: ok bye
RoCkStEaDychic66: love you hunny

I got one thing to say about jo~ :O) I love her...

REOCCURING NIGHTMARES~
OKay, so when something bad happens dealing with Rhi, I have bad dreams about her and JO, and i always wake up crying. They happen every night until the problem subsides....but i had a bad dream last night, and i think they are gonna stay for awhile. The only part that i can remember: Jo gave a hickey to Rhi, and Rhi gave her one too. They were all over each other and Jo acted like it was no big deal. Now I know this would never happen, but i'm troubled, and this is my curse. I can't help thinking about her and Rhi talking as if the conversations aren't doing any damage to me. I think about it 24/7...How do I stop it?? How can I stop my nightmares??? I wish Rhi would just evaporate, as well as my sadness. I'm always sad now. Jo says she understands, but i don't think she realizes how threatened i feel. I'm sad...and when i laugh, it's only a second as the sadness reappears within an instant. I don't know what to do. I know these problems are going to be constant, but how will i deal with them??? How am I supposed to? I have NO CLUE
:O( Maybe some good news will come L8ter.

I felt like yellin at Rhi....and i think she's goin to TRY and steal my baby....lol

ReNanan04: i told youthat what i wrote in that note was exactly how i felt......but that i did not want to TAKE jo from YOU. you love her and i would never dream of trying to get her to break up with you@
RoCkStEaDychic66: then y can't you just leave her alone...you always talk to her behind my back
ReNanan04: NO! you always think that! why cant she be my freidn?
RoCkStEaDychic66: because i don't trust you!!!
RoCkStEaDychic66: ull prolly do sompthin to her
ReNanan04: alright you can go ahead and think that. i alreayd told you that i wouldnt and im sorry that you cant trust me.
RoCkStEaDychic66: i don't...not after that note
ReNanan04: i know that
RoCkStEaDychic66: you know i love her...wouldn't you think "oh maybe i shouldn't write this note...it might screw things up even more."?
ReNanan04: well i might think that if joy hadnt of told me that jo wanted me to wright it
RoCkStEaDychic66: duhhhhhh....you should have been smart and said NO anyways
RoCkStEaDychic66: that was NOT appropriate
RoCkStEaDychic66: what did you think, that i was gonna be okay with that note and you sayin that kinda stuff to my girlfriend?
ReNanan04: just because you know how i feel doesnt mean that you dont have to trust me
ReNanan04: just b/c i feel that doesnt mean that i am going to act on it
RoCkStEaDychic66: i know, but would you have been okay if i wrote your boyfriend a note sayin that shit????
RoCkStEaDychic66: what would you think?
ReNanan04: i would know that you felt that way and i would feel wary but until you did something to make me not trust you then i would trsust you
ReNanan04: and i know that we already did that......but you know....you did too
RoCkStEaDychic66: but would you have been upset
ReNanan04: inside......a little. but when my friends do something to make me angry i do everything i can to try and undertsnad things from there point of view.......
ReNanan04: i would have tried to understand because i felt the same way u no?
RoCkStEaDychic66: no
RoCkStEaDychic66: not on that....
ReNanan04: why?
RoCkStEaDychic66: because that hurt too much
ReNanan04: i know....im sorry
RoCkStEaDychic66: no ur not
ReNanan04: and u dont ever believe me when i apologize....i would not say it if i did not mean it
ReNanan04: at least i never lie to you sheena
RoCkStEaDychic66: u kept stuff from me
ReNanan04: no....if you would have come up to me and asked about that note.....like you did
ReNanan04: did i lie
ReNanan04: no
RoCkStEaDychic66: all the stuff between u and jo
ReNanan04: u confronted me about kissing jo.....did i lie?
ReNanan04: no
ReNanan04: what 'stuff'' beatween us?
RoCkStEaDychic66: stuff when i tell you not to talk to her...what do you do??? taLK TO HER. you go behind my back.. when im there u look the other way, but when you two are alone. boy you go at it and talk..and you try to make me mad....
ReNanan04: ok
ReNanan04: that is my point
ReNanan04: you tell me not tot tlak to her
ReNanan04: thats bullshit
ReNanan04: you have no right to dothat
ReNanan04: and you always beleve her! how do you know that she doesnt come upo talk to me?
RoCkStEaDychic66: no its not if your tryin to move in on her and YOU ARE or you wouldn't have written that note
ReNanan04: just cuz she says so?
RoCkStEaDychic66: i know she does....and i bitch at her too
ReNanan04: well you know I AM NOT TRYING TO MOVE IN ON HER
ReNanan04: jesus christ
ReNanan04: if i was trying to move in on her.....i would already have her!!!!!
RoCkStEaDychic66: then y would you write that note, and don't gimme bullshit like joy told me to, you made the choice to.
RoCkStEaDychic66: oh you think ur that good?
ReNanan04: i did make the choice too! i do love her! and i do feel that way about her! but you are my friend! and i care about your feelings! i wouldnt try to hurt you again! EVER! i promised you that
ReNanan04: and yes i know thatim that good
RoCkStEaDychic66: hell no u aren't
RoCkStEaDychic66: u shouldn't tell ppl that tho when they are already involved...that's wrong
ReNanan04: im sorry.....i know it is wrong
RoCkStEaDychic66: rhiannan, you suck....u can't have her
ReNanan04: i dont want her
ReNanan04: and i dont suck
RoCkStEaDychic66: yeah u do....u aren't that good
ReNanan04: dont even start with me sheena.......if i had the notion i could walk tright across the street walk into save alot and within 5 minutes i couyld have her out of your life and into mine!
ReNanan04: so dont fucking go there!
RoCkStEaDychic66: no you couln't
ReNanan04: im glad you think so
RoCkStEaDychic66: and i know it
ReNanan04: go ahead and keep thinking so
RoCkStEaDychic66: I KNOW IT
RoCkStEaDychic66: you aren't all that good rhiannan
ReNanan04: ok...thats what you think

I would just like to say for the record that Rhi did go down to Janna's work....and she didn't get my baby, she didn't even try. Guess she isn't as BAD a$$ as she thinks she is... How bout you actually TRY rhi, cuz i wanna laugh in your FACE when you get shut DOWN!!!!! <3Cuz i KNOW my Jann BabY LOVES me<3 :O) Hahaha...

FIGHTING WITH TEARS~
well, today...hmm. I really don't know. It didn't go too well. my mom and i were going to go to the mall to get presents for family, but this stupid sherry girl from work called off sick ( YEAH RT!!! hell no she ain't sick) so my mom had to go to work. I went with JO to the mall. she had to get gift cards for her mom and pop. oh yeah, we also went to best buy. so anyways, we are at the mall. she got her gift cards, bought me a cute green scarf from AE to match my coat that i also got at AE. It's a christmas present, but i told her im wearin it now....it's too damn cold not to!! So we left and went to Applebee's to eat and get another gift card there!! our food was yummy!! she got steak and i got a chicken caeser salad w/ garlic toast. YUM Then we left and as we were drivin JO told me that she talked to Rhi the other day after school. you're probably like, yeah...okay...what about it??? Right? Well this girl likes my janna (JO)...and i don't want them to talk because of that. It makes me cry so much cuz i think she is tryin to steal jo away from me. So i told jo that if she wanted to be with me, then she had to stop talking to rhi, and if she wanted to be friends with Rhi, then i wasn't going to be with her. And she choose Rhi...she didn't say that, but she said "I'm not going to stop talking to her. I'm allowed to be friends with whoever i want." I was so upset becuase this Rhi gurl wrote my janna a note sayin how she loved jo and she made her horny...OMG!! wouldn't you be mad too? The rest of the afternoon was spent crying. Not me though, I was gonna stand solid on my ground...but in the end i did break a couple tears. I was proud of Jo though, she didn't hit me one time when she was mad.. she has a problem with that..but she never hit me once, she controlled it and i'm SOOO PROUD of HER!!! so to make a long story short, me and jo are together, but she is gonna talk to Rhi when she wants too...(I'm not happy about that part!!) oh well....i need to have my baby.

Sorry, I had to come back because i wasn't finished earlier. Me and my gurl, Jo, have been together for 11 months now. I always picture us being together forever, but i just don't know now. What am I saying???? I know we are going to be together, i just get so upset sometimes...and i have cried the past 2 days due to her actions. I don't know why she acts so mean...it's not like she is PMSing...she's almost off the rag. (I know... too much info) But i just don't UNDERSTAND!!!! ¿¿why?? She needs to recognize. Yesterday, she blamed me for our fight, which was clearly her fault. I have been ignoring her since school ended. I didn't go down to visit her during her break at work like i usually do. maybe she will get the hint that i am upset. Probably not though, she'll just yell at me more. Maybe I should talk to her, but like that is going to get us anywhere...Okay, on to a different issue. My friend Justin called me late last night to tell me that he was robbed at work (Taco Bell) in akron!! He is alright, but DAMN... i wouldn't work up there. id be too scared. well, that's all for tonight...NO MORE

BEGINNING OF THE MIDDLE~
ok...it's here. the beginning. i need to write this cuz my life is oh so hectic!! My girlfriend, yes my girl is getting on my NERVES!!! she is so mean to me in front of our friends. And then she is so nice when we are alone, and then she apoligizes. Well i personally think it is BULL$hiT!! she doesn't even understand how she is making me feel, and i don't know HOW to make her know. Everytime i tell her, she just goes and gets pi$$ed...oh what to do, what to do...